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As usually, typical situation for Kristina. Without any doubts, it's far more interesting to have or smb in your head then have there nothing. But, holly shit,it seems like life or fate play with me, talking bout some kind of love affairs.

Yes, it irritates and hurts my ambitions. Maybe i ask sth unbelievable, no, i can't say so. Sitting in fornt of my monitor, I stopped to read art history, and start ot think bout him...2 days left and i'll have nice opportunity, but i'll miss it. Why? Because i know, that i'll got fuck instead what i want , perhaps Life saves me from my sick desires? But finally, i need it. The same, smb else will get what i want... so good of you, Kristina, you never fight for what you want, cuz ur fuckin' inner ideals tell you it has to be in a different way...But, i have many "buts". Can anybody helps me to get it??If you can, help, ok. Many thanks!!!